not two, not one

there is another perception... rather curious... the space in which there is perceiving ...... a vast and open container which contains one's own mind and all that is perceived by one's own mind... in which there is simply an unfolding.

and whatever is happening... a job to make money to pay rent or whatever - the actions of .... using my job .... cutting some raw meat or cooking or making meals where there is on one level - just me doing something ... and on another level - some things happening including me - relationships - where "I" cannot be separate from what "I" am doing and not separate to "what" I am doing or to the "thing" I am working on ...

a curious switching back and forth from a kind of awareness of this space in which all unfolds ... then like falling asleep back into a situation where all is seen only from the perspective of "I"...

but the times when that spacious awareness occurs there is a vibrancy and vividness and a falling away of internal trouble... and a kind of upwelling of empathy for all beings being self consumed with internal trouble... and a kind of awake noticing - the light in the eyes of others - that spark of wakefulness which they don't notice in themselves... and a kind of curious deep seated appreciation and surprised delight at all of the individual expressions - physically, mentally, culturally, emotionally - thousands of people who walk into the grocery store where i work - with such solidified notions of there own "I"ness - but at the same time - are contained in that same not separate vastness...

all of these forms - people and what they buy and what they eat and what they do and what they have and see and hear and touch and feel and all those relationships that occur where there is no conscious awareness - all interdependant - arising together... so interdependant that the sense of a separate "I" with my own money buying my own beef steak seems to be a stranger concept than conceiving of a oneness sort of concept...

separateness and nonseparateness... both concepts flawed... incomplete....

not two, not one.